The Beginning

Lyfe at a Glance
With no worries in the world, straight out of High School nine months pregnant and he was my best friend. I was living the average girls dream. Shopping sprees, hair done every week and nail appointments with TeeTee. You couldn’t tell me anything. While my classmates were in college or entering into corporate America, I was busy planning our fun day out.
I was his Queen and he was my King I loved me some him. He was a Hustler and the money was good. Hell thousands in one day and all I had to do was cook, clean and raise my son. A job? A college education? Yea right! He hustled all day and gambled all night. Rent paid for months in ahead. Bills were not for me to worry about per him! You don’t gotta work if you don’t want to he told me time and time again. Until the planes hit the twin towers in NY. Now dope was coming in the fed’s was on everything moving in and the streets was at a standstill! Weather it was by plane or railroads nothing was getting past them. Dope on the streets was either artificial or no good.
So my shopping sprees went from 3 times a week to about once a week. And my nails with TeeTee went to every two weeks. Damn this was getting me in a difficult situation cause by this time I was spoiled rotten and No wasn’t anything I was use to hearing. But he made it up by Vacationing on beaches and seeing new places. Still no care in the world things would pick up soon and gambling had become the full time hustle. It was bring in more than Dope and it was keeping the bills paid. Until the streets stop calling and shit hadn’t picked up. Now nigga's was getting they ass whooped and wanted to fight or shot it out.
Now that funds are low and bills are just current it was time for me to go to work ouch! He told me I pay for us to live but you’ll have to pay to Shop! I remember thinking shit I don’t wanna have to get up and go to work, so we arguing because I not looking like I should be, in the mall shopping saying I was searching!
Well one day he didn’t come home I was looking out the window, blowing up his cell; I was nervous more than angry my first thought was drug deal gone bad! Feel asleep on the couch and the next morning he comes his punk ass in the house. We arguing, fusing, and fighting cause I wanna know where the hell you been. But all he could say was at the club with his friends. Of course I’m steaming Hot so he buys me a car! Dumb is what I’m thinking now.
But times goes on and he visits this club often only to find out that he’s dating the entertainer! So this bitch is paying our bills given up tips and shit, and he thought I was suppose to deal with it! Yeah Fucking Right! So I decided Time out!

Cover up CoverGirl

Cover up Girl!

Covering up is what your name should be! Cover your flaws by trying to release what use to be. See I’m not ashamed of anything that was in the past! I’m thankful for bumping my own head, and not allow myself to be lead down the wrong path. I just stepped over you, everyone knows things don’t always last. Due dwelling in the past again you been passed. . . . While I’m laughing at you, you can’t seem to pass this class. While your plotting, I’m watching laughing cause your working so hard but yet you’ve already been defeated only by God . O' thank you Lord, see he told long time ago not to trust none of you Foe's. Your train of thought is so elementary, that baby We've already achieved it! U pretend but its fake something I hate, but yet U think I can’t see it. I laugh cause u inspire me, to be all that I can be, an watch u try an beat me. All this time you thought there was no progress, My Momma always taught me never to release to anyone your deepest darkest secrets? People are envious and they will love to see you defeated. I learned about 99’ never trust no one but Jesus!
So apply your cover girl, little girls and get back to your childish ways. Playing dress up and ain't going nowhere you could be saving that for another day. An still praying for better days. How can you be blessed hating on others? And just think, you’re a mother? Is it the God in me that has you so mad cause if so I can put you in the class? If you were gone hate on me why didn’t you keep it 100? But again cover up little girl for your not ready to be a grown woman. U think your heart aches now? You just wait and see! What goes around comes around times 1 thousand and three.
However I going to let God deal with you for your demons are much too deep for me I would need the U.S. Army and half of the Navy Seals to assist me. Ur evilness will make you pay, that’s why you pay each and every day. Since pay backs a bitch than I can’t wait till you meet this chic. Now this gone be the Sh*t.
I come from nothing just trying to have something; I don’t mind assisting u on the way. But don’t talk about me cause I can handle mines an assist a few others on my way. While you’re so busy downing folks I bent down to praying.
Dear Daddy
I pray against Prey that comes my way and Harm they want to see me in each an everyday. Change their hearts for I have not caused such pain. They can’t be mad at me because I choose to go the other way. Father turn them around and their minds too. Help them see what I see, that Daddy loves his Daughters too. Uncover their eyes so they can see this is a dead end. Amen!
Don’t allow the covering of your own flaws to spread like a illness, killing others around you. For there is a cure an it’s on you to be cured! You seem to have the solution for everyone else but what about yours? Find out why you’re so angry!!! It’s like a eternal fight you against you! Find out why you’re so bitter cause I’m straight with me boo. You seem to want to start over Dang this whole time! With nothing to show what a waste of God’s time.

Just goes to show u I wear my heart on my sleeve well don’t worry I getting rid of u fleas. Putting my heart up an let myself enjoy my life , before I end up like u at the cross road still looking for a life. Live your life stop trying to Run others . You can live too and stop talking about each others. Worry about you! I’m sorry WHO ARE YOU?

As the world turns, your mind remains the same. People are growing older but yet u remains the same. “I’m not growing old?” Yes, you are boo! Just look up an you’ll find others that have passed you too. Your wondering why it’s because you have so much clutter. Jesus Christ Free your soul because of the way you hate on others! Father Bless her heart, she needs a cheering squad, I’m a one man’s team but I'm still being double teamed?!? Not one good player? not one MVP? I know my role and yes sweetie I play it Faithfully. U don’t have to hate on me cause God made me differently! Don’t be mad just be who he made you to be. I’m just sorry it took you this long to see That you being Phony will never hurt me! Cause you know I'm as real as you want to be!*wink* Cover girls!